Random Thoughts

It has been a crazy couple of days. The YFC banquet was good , but tiring. I'm feeling tired these days, with my son not sleeping that great and lots going on with work and school, I'm spent. But things are going well. God is good. I have to admit that I am very scared these days. Largely due to what is going on at our Bridge D4 night every friday. It seems to be growing more and more and that scares the you know what out of me. I feel completely inadequate for this mission, but I guess that is what God wants from us all. He wants and needs to be glorified through us, this has caused me to look up and say thank you Lord because this is beyond me. I am humbled by God's goodness and grace and how he continues to work in my life even though I feel like I let him down a lot. On a different note I picked up Donald Miller's new book To Own A Dragon. Miller talks about his life growing up without a father around. As I read through this I am reminded of how I grew up and how growing up without a father around will effect me for the rest of my life. I believe that God has brought me a great distance since I have come to the Lord seven years ago. I feel I now look at my dad as God looks at him, with love and compassion. Don't get me wrong, since my dad moved back from Vancouver in August there have been days where I have not been like Christ, but I know for a fact that back in the day I would have strangled my dad on more than one occassion, which is a testament to God himself and what he has done in my life. Praise God, He is worthy.